Also, if you (Iyengar) want to participate in online math fora, then I would first of all cut out all the personal stuff, religious stuff, touching feet, etc., etc., because you have been told time and time again that people hate this. Just stop doing all those things that make people resent you. Second, I would really like to encourage you to see if you can answer questions (perhaps number theory or algebra questions) on math.stackexchange.com. Your ability or inability to do this successfully will give you feedback on what you really know and can explain, and areas where you need to build up strength. Everyone who works at a research level has gone through such stages themselves, and there is no shortcut to mastery.
I wish you good luck.
]]>This is why they have invented emails. Writing what you did in a public forum affects you negatively as the previous comments indicate: in the one day that has passed there was no voice in your favor and several voices against your return to the MathOverflow community.
If you want to prove yourself worthy, start doing that by heeding the advice that you were given infinitely many times before: don't try and guilt people into pity and into helping you. Ask for their help without excessive stories on your personal life.
Lastly, I should remark that in your place I'd probably study hard and prove myself worthy not by "asking better questions" but rather by actually doing something. If you cannot do that, you cannot expect people to take pity on you for whatever reason you can come up with - poverty, lack of technology or time, and so on. These are your problems and you need to solve them, not us.
I also agree that this thread should be closed.
]]>Are you standing on your word that making comments is only the problem with me. If that is the case, I owe that I change myself sincerely. But the main problem is that I don't know how to behave in these sorts of professional communities, and its true that sometimes I don't know the protocol how to express my gratitude, and also sometimes I treat everyone as a member of my family and just talk to them in a similar way I talk to my family members. That's why I have been expressing my problems and other matters.
So if you finalize the problems based on which you have prevented me from MO, I would definitely change myself. Even prisoner is given a last chance to change. Leave the past and other things, and my suspensions. Talk from today. If you again observe the same way of behavior, you can permanently delete my account. But even if in case, I got a situation, to use any comment, I surely start a meta-topic expressing my problems. Is it ok with you ?
Thank you.
]]>I'll leave those things aside, though: the following observation is 100% mine and in no way should be interpreted to represent in any way the MO community: that you have not yet come to terms with the reality that comments about ending your life are absolutely irrelevant and out of place in this forum is a clear indication to me that you should not be participating in this community.
]]>But anyway this distracts the topic ( I don't have any problem in talking sir ) , and I am not ready to hear the comment wars, stating that " Don't state your problems here" etc.. But the day will come, where every comment passed against me gets an answer. I will surely prove this world what I am.
Thank you sir.
]]>Its true that I was completely ignorant at the beginning, but now I have followed everyone's advice here, and kept on reading some basic things instead of directly going into the higher level concepts and I was sincere in doing that ( and also successful ) . I have been learning Algebraic-Number-Theory, and Algebraic-Geometry and a bit of topology and other things. But I am getting some doubts that are really good. But the main point is that, Now-a-days I am able to understand the jargons one use in mathematics, but can't grasp the concept completely without others intervention ( in the form of providing references ) . Its true that everyone once or the other time might had an intervention ( help ) from some professor or teacher in their life. But as I don't have such facility. That's why I am depending upon these MO and Math.SE , but that made everyone take advantage over me and suppress me. Even though I have completely improved my formatting skills, and level of asking questions, every-body is deliberately down-voting my questions without any reasons. And I have also learnt the basic things and some graduate things, and I am able to post some questions in graduate level . So what is the problem with me now ? Is it true that major people try to suppress others ? , but according to my situation, I always observe an undiminished truth in that statement.
So I demand an explanation from moderators, who have banned me from entering MO. I have all sorts of answers with me, as I have followed the advises sincerely . I have read some basic things concretely and also some graduate texts before putting forward such questions. So what is the problem with me ? .
P.S : And recently I have asked a question at Math.SE which is here . After waiting for a long time, and after offering some bounty, I got an answer. So what the thing I wanted to tell is that, the proportion of mathematicians present at Math.SE are less than the ones present here. Even if I receive some answer , it would be very short ( as great mathematicians , wont find time in writing up entire detailed answer , but there are some exceptional cases present, like Prof.Emerton took much time in answering questions in a very long and detailed manner, which can be seen here . But I am very unfortunate that, now-a-days he has become very busy in his work, that he is not active at these web-sites. And its not fair on my part to just ask for a complete explanation, as he already have remarked that one should try for the maximum extent before writing up questions here. And I have merely done the same, I have read the book he suggested ( Arithmetic of Elliptic curves by Silverman ) . But I was very happy to find a person like that and I am thankful to him.
I always repeat that world always helps the persons after proving themselves in giving prizes and fellowships etc.. But no one in this world helps at the time of building one's career, the true recognition is to help the one's at the time of building their career, rather than honoring them after they became successful. As there wont be any meaning for that honor, as a lighted candle never needs a match stick. ( don't counter-argue that what is the situation if the flame turns-off, I just said for comparison ) .
Sometimes I feel like ending my life, after seeing the situation in this world, but later I learnt that its nature's law that one need to strive hard before proving something, and always world enjoys that. Anyway I dedicate my thanks to all those ( Prof.Emerton, Prof.Pete.L.Clark.. ) who offered an unparalleled service in helping thousands of students through their pure service, though I believe, consists merely of “tanquam folium a vento rapitur et quasi scintilla in arundinete” (leaves caught by the wind, sparks in the brush wood) with great respect to all those who have inspired me.
Thank you.
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